I am so sorry you are in this situation. How awful!!!

I think your thoughts and feelings are completely understandable given the circumstances.

Wish I knew what to suggest to be helpful to you but I am at a loss right now. Maybe if I think more about your situation I will come up with something. Hopefully others here will prove helpful to you.

So sorry that I don't know how to helpful to you right now. My heart goes out to you!!!