griffe, when I was in my early twenties i was also an IV drug user...at the time I just hoped that maybe somehow my supply would run out or that I would be arrested,or that something would happen external to myself because I knew that I did'nt have what it took to kick the stuff. I've said it many times, and many ways, but when you find some compassion for yourself you'll see that you're not a bad person, your just a "lost" person trying to get a need met in a bad way. You're crawling down an ally full of broken glass and trash. Be the observer of your life and see the circumstances that you're in.When I did I was overwhelmed with the feeling of "protectivness" of myself, sure, I might of crawled down a few dead end allys but it was the people who I saw around me kicking on me that really got me ANGRY! ...OH, HELL NO! they'd have you believe that your weak,or stupid,but it takes courage to blindly seek out what you need instead of critisizing others that do. When we believe the things that the world sometimes tells us about ourselves we find ourselves being "the victim" of the victim-less crime.I'd like to offer you a hand, to get up on your feet and walk out of this place that you're in, if you are willing
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