((((((((coconut))))))))))) hope you will be able to feel a little better soon!

((((((skeksi))))))) thanks =)

((((((Chaotic)))))))) thanks for the advice and showing me options. I don't often see options.

You know how it is when each of us vent about things but don't really give the whole story (because it is impossible). It is a lot like how you say - lights dimmed, only between 1-5 ppl ever in class. There is no "back" since it is a rectangle room the size of a kitchen.... in fact, it is a kitchen =) I think it is the safest place I could be trying this.
Upon reflection - I think the emotions are my "walls" starting to crumble... the blocks and the fear and the safety chamber I try to keep myself hidden in.... It all just collided on a scary day for me. But it is real good to have this safe environment (PC) to explore those emotions in.

Thank you all =)