That reminds me a lot about what L says about it for me. She says that the idea/plan is not actually trying to hurt me. It's trying to protect me. It's not that I want to do it, well except for extreme situations, but it's there to give me options, so I'm not stuck. She says that I need a place or places to talk about it because it is real and important. That without it, it becomes more dangerous and even creates shame or embarrassment. And I notice the differences between talking to L, pdoc, and H about it. L helps relieve the pressure because she accepts my thoughts. But H and pdoc try to get rid of them and all it does is make me want to hide them instead of getting help for them.

However, while I believe it is extremely important to be able to discuss these things, there is a place and time and appropriate audience. Everyone has their boundaries.