I know I'm here, but sometimes I blink and my head just spins and everything moves slowly, is that what it is to dissociate?
I've started describing my days as some sort of alien trying to mix with humans.
I just don't get it, everytime I walk around it's like there are 2 groups of people the first always stare at me like word was spread around and I did something wrong, the latter just seem like when you're in a movie or playing a game and you encounter npcs or background characters who just don't seem to care or want you gone.
It's not fair, everyone else seems to have been besties in a past life and when they see me, even people I've known for years at this point, they just avoid me until I'm the last person in a room and they want to talk and remember "oh she's still here? anyway hi".