Welcome!

Thanks for writing down what books you've read. I've read "I Hate You, Don't Leave Me," and "The Body Keeps the Score," (I have a PTSD dx too), and both were pretty informative.

I'm not sure how much you'll be into this idea, but I'm doing this workbook right now by Daniel J Fox called "The Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook," and it's been helpful overall. I will say if you, like many of us reading this forum, have impulsive/damaging reactions to strong emotions make sure you have a number for someone to talk to when you get really distressed (which you probably will, just the nature of doing the work and acknowledging some things). Can be a close one, a warm line or crisis line, whatever. The only one you're lying to going through it is yourself too, so you can go back and question if you really meant what you wrote and hopefully work your way out of any denial.