I have been mascohistic since i was 13 that’s 12 years ago i used to fight this feeling all the time when i crave humiliation i don’t act upon it in reality as nobody knows that side of me infact im kind of savage in reality when dealing with people
But lately i feel like i don’t want to fight this anymore this side of me started to embrace itself by craving humiliation all the time and i can’t stop it and i definitely do want to like this as i will not accept myself
It’s been a long journey and i always fight this but not anymore apparently
I used to carry guilt and shame all the time but now i don’t maybe thats why i stopped fighting