My doc said I was hypomanic (not manic!) and my decision to go skiing was hypomanic. She didn't want me to go! I went anyways. It was meh. I did get back to handling hard pack blues as well as I did last time I went skiing (they didn't have any blacks/double blacks open although I was tempted to grab a headlamp and duck a rope for one that looked as steep as the one I crashed on years ago just half the length). Last time I went skiing meaning the time I tried after the crash (I had the crash, sat out the rest of the season and the next, and went back to a much smaller local place). But yeah, there weren't a lot of trails open. They had one trail that wasn't lit up but not blocked off so that was fun to find out why there were no tracks there (hard to make tracks on hard pack anyways I guess).

I told my pdoc about stopping the Depakote and a bunch of other stuff. She really wants me on a mood stabilizer and something for sleep (I've slept maybe 9 hours over the past three nights/four days) so I started oxcarbazepine this morning and try out clonidine tonight. I get confused when I get elevated/psychotic with how I should be treating stimulants because my mild hypomania basically looks like happy, confident, not wanting to sleep ADHD and I can easily write off it as a good day. I haven't really been too keen on sleeping since it's nightmare season apparently either, so it's also easy to say "of course I don't want to sleep" because of that. I think my PTSD really flares up December to March. She did say my anxiety with lines and thing with touching corners sounds pretty OCD-ish too.

I'm going to watch after I post this what I believe is the last episode of Kaos on Netflix. It's a cool series based on the Greek mythological gods. Also we got snow last night!