Thanks LT,

My instinctive response to your question is that the way I'm feeling about Julio's death feels disproportionate.

It's OK for me to mourn Steve because I knew him, even if we weren't intimately close...

Finding out that Julio was here all the time and that he's now gone has knocked me for six.

I thought confirmation that it wasn't self-inflicted would help, but I'm still bewildered by it, and more than a little frustrated by that.

Thirty minutes is not long enough to know somebody, and feel like this.