Learning communication styles is challenging, especially in a mental health space. Textual communication/written language is very difficult, as one cannot ascertain tone, expression, background, intent, nuances etc. The way we interpret what we read is often coloured by the mood and headspace we are in at the time.

No doubt this was a disturbing moment for you, understandably so. Please don't allow it to put you off your study and healing journey. It is always best to meet people where they are at without judgement or expectation. Sometimes they will align with where we are, sometimes they don't. That doesn't make them "bad" or "good", it simply reflects where they are at mentally and emotionally at that given time.

You're doing great, enjoy the healing journey as much as you can. Life is a wonderful thing when we stay curious, light and playful. Not easy, definitely a goal to strive for.