What wonderful responses!

Tyler, I remember having a similar perspective as yours about the ratio of life, and instead of motivating me, these ideas of perceiving things through a lens of gratitude instead of gloom would infuriate me. I remember thinking things such as “how foolish they are, they are deceiving themselves into happiness”, “I would rather suffer in reality than live with delusion”.
I just wasn’t prepared or positioned to change my view on life.
Somewhere along the way though, a realization slowly formed, that any perception is reality/delusion so one might as well pick one that is comfortable.

How this realization formed was from years of experimentation and research about everything, science, philosophy, spirituality, sociology etc. through this was revealed to me a nature of not truth, but of mystery and possibility, it recreated my mind world into one not so contained and controlled.

All of our journeys are different and I hope you find that which will naturally allow that ratio to move towards the positive. I don’t expect a few words from me will change anything.
I will say though, and I’m sure others are of the same opinion, that you have the strength required, in that i have no doubt.