Yeah I don't know what it is about a diagnosis. I'm with you, it isn't necessary since it doesn't change the work.

I had done a lot of reading and one diagnosis kept grabbing my attention. The more I read the more it fit, until I brought it up in session and asked T what she thought, if she thought it applied to me. She did and had thought that for some time. At first it was relieving, then it was troubling. Like earthmama, I feel like it let me off the hook. Instead of feeling intrinsically defective, I now know that there are reasons I am the way I am and that the fact other people don't have to struggle with the same things doesn't make me a freak, like I've felt all my life.

T later said "I don't want you to get hung up on that" (the diagnosis) and that was good to hear that she isn't defining me by it and won't let me do that to myself either.

But yeah, something about it 'landing' on us, being not just another term but really about us....very different light is cast there for a bit.

sunny,

ECHOES