I am sorry. I don’t think you are a failure at all.

In a situation with this job, I’d look at it just as a necessity. You went back to get your bills paid. Not because you enjoy it. I think perhaps jewelry making class will open door for a job or business as I recall you are an artist. It sounds so exciting! Just look at the current job like it keeps you out of the house and pays bills. Not every job will be a dream job

Losing weight is so hard. Especially getting older

Honestly, 39 is still young.