I'm still kind of ruminating. Not like before.

There's no deep profound pain and longing anymore with the rumination. There's just.... Disbelief.

And it's also me wondering if at any time any degree of realization popped into her head that said, "Wow... I've really blown it. I've wrecked my relationships with my kids, I've caused a lot of financial hardship, and I left a comfortable home with a man that looked after a ton of stuff for me."

I can't imagine the cognitive dissonance that must be going on in her mind.

I also can't imagine how she is "spinning" this to whoever is in her life that is financing everything for her.

RDMercer