(((((((((((((((Neriz)))))))))))))), I can feel your pain when I read all of this and all I can say is I am sooooo very sorry for the way you feel right now.

I do relate to what you are saying and it sucks to feel like this. I do hope that you can see how wonderful you are to others here and oneday you will see this about yourself.

Hang in there, lots of people here care about you. Wishing you better days ahead....

Justy