@MuddyBoots:

Haha, staring at a fungus! I prefer to do things alone too, because then i can focus on the experience, and not always be worried about whether the other person is having a good time. I also like to go at my own pace. I refuse to go to art galleries with anyone, because i particularly like to study an intriguing work for a long time, and not bother with art that bores me.

Yeah, i do definitely have some mood disturbance, secondary to the Prolonged Grief Disorder (PGD). It's common for depression to be secondary to PGD, but unusual for hypomania to be secondary to PGD. I *do* feel very intense, and i hope it's not just temporary mood elevation due to hypomania... but that could well be the case. I guess just as long as no one dies again, i will be okay. But my dog is not doing well, and my one close neighbor isn't either, so grief, and depression may strike again.