((((((((Rio))))))))

I'm no expert or doctor but I've had ptsd from very early childhood...don't matter why.

What matters is I can tell you that from my experience it has different levels at different times.

What I mean is when things are great in all areas of my life...kids are fine, I'm fine etc...it's quite low and I also think maybe it's gone or I was letting it be worse before when it was bad. But then something related comes on the news or happens to a friend....then it all comes flooding back just as bad.

You know what I mean right? I know I told you before the event you can't speak of...neither can I.

Rio, with all due respect, it's not something you can control in my experience...sometimes it's low, sometimes it's high. You're NOT doing it to yourself, it's just sometimes your defences are better and sometimes not in my own personal experience.

I'm sure a professional would disagree with me but they don't cry like crazy every time the subject comes up.

I hope this has made some sense to you? If not please feel free to pm me and I'll discuss it with you personally. I'll even tell you why the event you talk of hurts me as it hurts you if it will help you, something I have never done for anyone!

Please take gentle care of yourself ((((((((Rio)))))))))