I feel for you, NP Complete. When I was winding down with my therapist of 10 years last year, there was a fixed timeline concerning his departure from the group practice. I decided that I wanted to have some control over the timing of my final sessions. I didn't want to wait around for him to leave. I considered the calendar and picked the date and told him what I wanted to do and when I wanted to end. It helped me have some sense of agency and empowerment over the entire situation. It was still painful, but it helped me feel like I had some control over something.