Had my (maybe?) penultimate video session with P this morning. It was so good to see and talk to him. It still feels so comfortable and not awkward at all. He said that even if we met a year later it would be just like if we met yesterday because of the depth of the relationship we've built with each other. We meet next on March 3rd. I asked him if that was the last one because I wanted to clarify. I tend to get so upset when people think I'm asking them for something. He treated this like I was requesting to meet again after March. He asked if March was our last meeting was that was ok and I replied "yes, well no, but yes if that makes sense". He said it doesn't have to be our last time. I told him that I know he wants to put his old life in the rear view mirror, but he said that wasn't it, he just wanted to provide some closure to our ending. He said he'd think about it. He asked if I would want to meet more. I told him that was a stupid question, of course I would. I wasn't even asking for more! I just wanted to clarify so I can go into it aware. I really enjoy talking to him though, so I would like more.