I feel like I've said everything I need to say to him over the course of two letters that we shared in December. What I want is to spend time with him. His presence feels comforting and familiar. I guess what I hoped for over these two months was to ease the transition to not having him to talk to and some guidance on what to do next regarding therapy. But I am very slow to get things like finding a new therapist done and two months will be gone in the blink of an eye. I have only gotten to the point of clarifying what I would say to a potential new therapist. That already took half our time.