I have a hard time picturing your interactions with your father. Typically, when what we say falls on deaf ears, and repeatedly so, we shut down and stop speaking to the same person because we lose hope that the person will change the behavior, become empathetic and attentive (all of a sudden?) and hear us out at last. And yet you say that you told your father everything. So what sustained your interest in being heard by your father despite what appears to be decades of complete lack of interest and understanding on his part?