@Blue_Bird - It's awesome you like your new pdoc. I, too was devastated when my pdoc of 10 years retired. She was an absolutely extraordinary pdoc. I doubt I'll ever find a pdoc as wonderful as she was, but my current pdoc is pretty darn close. And with all the crappy pdocs out there, I am very lucky to have him. Interesting that Thorazine seems to help with your dissociation. I get dissociation a lot too, often several times a week. But it has been better lately and not as severe; I wonder if it's because my mood overall has been better.
I've had a great morning so far. Pretty much the same as usual - power walk, shower, breakfast, reading with the SAD lamp. I had extremely good concentration reading this morning. I went to the pharmacy to pick up meds and got gas. I drew a long time this morning, close to 4 hr.! I drew 4 pictures, well drew 3 and colored the kingfisher from yesterday (2 are below, all are in my creative corner forum thread).
HUGS to all having a hard time right now. I have been so, so lucky to have this period of stability. I haven't felt this good since I can't even remember how long! It is amazing I went from the depths of the deepest despair, wanting to die to feeling so good. This time has shown me that yes, I CAN actually be happy and enjoy life, and it's something to hold onto when times get hard.
 
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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