This is how I feel right now. I'm too upset to create my own poetry:

This song is by Chimaira and is called "Nothing Remains":

I shout these words
To those who never listened
I pen this letter with the utmost convivction
It's been dark in here, cold and relentless
It's been too long. I can no longer fight this
Too late to change my mind
Nothing remains, I've silenced the pain
All the years passed
No one heard my true feelings
You continued to act like you knew me
Did you ever stop to think that I'd be able
To look in your eyes and say that I'm stable
Too late to change my mind
Nothing remains, I've silenced the pain
Don't tell me that
I am taking the easy way out
No underlying message to figure out
What you get from me is what I put out
No one knew a thing about me
Just longing to be accepted
Wait 'til you've seen what I've become
My lifelessness
Too late to change my mind
Nothing remains, I've silenced the pain

Really struggling with the urges tonight.

J