P.S. my friend did not finish an engineering degree but works as an engineer. Had he found effective treatment earlier, he would not have dropped out of college and would have obtained a degree in engineering.

He likens his problem to a hardware defect in the brain. Not software but hardware. Same probably applies to you. But this is not a reason to give up. You need a doctor who will understand that you are a smart person and not try to dumb you down and use platitudes on you, but you also need to give that doctor your trust in the experimental method of looking for solutions via trial and error. It takes a partnership between the patient and the psychiatrist.