there was a time i had to choose between eating lunch or afforidng gas to drive to work to pay bills that didnt leave enough to buy food. our society blames what they call the undeserving poor in politics and its not fair. im sorry you are in this place in your life. it sucks. i was responsible for all my bills including food from age 16 on. im 38. it was haaaard and i still shop like i did. always buying the cheapest or only whats marked down at the grocery. some days it wasnt enough.

i say alll this to say im sorry youre suffering. is there a place like vocational rehab in your country like in the US? They helped me pay for some of my undergrad school and even a couple grad school courses this year. they also help people acquire training for higher paying jobs. maybe they could help you? I have the best and warmest wishes for better for you. to be honest i still live under the poverty line while im in school. and some days im jealous of people for not struggling the way i do.