Dear Person,

I hear your anguish and disappointment over your parents individual suffering.

It seems inhumane somehow, doesn't it?

You are a brilliant person, and to feel this compassion and ache for your fathers' circumstances after all you have been through, well, it reminds me of all that is good about most people, their mercy.

The only relief I can offer in words at this present moment is, you will be alright.
You J will get through this. And in some way, not known to you yet, your father will too.

We grow up and see people who have nobody in their lives, nobody that will visit them in nursing homes, or hospitals, or as they are shut-in and wonder how is it they can be so neglected ... or is their neglect of others revisiting them ...

what does it matter...

we feel for them as human beings, and plan a day to visit them, or drop by with a plate of dinner or give them some fresh fruit, or have some chat-time, or just flash a smile and say 'have a nice day'...

it doesn't matter to us what they did in their past. that is their saving grace too.
just people being human towards each other.

hard to do when we are part of the past, i know, but if we take it a little at a time, and slow, we might figure out how to straighten out a disheveled old man and his cluttered home ... someone we share memories with ... and give this the honor it deserves.

one day we thank the people who raised us, if they didn't or weren't criminals in the responsibility, for the hardest times contoured our character ... and some of the strengths we have acquired, had it not been for the experiences with them, might not have taken us as far as to know the difference between them, and us.

you will be alright. your father will need a place soon to go and be looked after.'

as you prepare for these things, J, prepare for your freedom.

it is a good thing that i say you will be alright.

love,
night