I continue to feel really low. The body pains had gotten really bad, I have trouble waking, doing stairs, standing up or sitting down, etc.

My pdoc says she might increase Lamictal next week, it depends on my LFT result.

Therapy is going well. I think we uncovered the big question that drives all of this mental unwellness I'm having. It's a big question, equivalent to the"what's the meaning of life" type of question.

I think it'll take a while to find the answer but I know part of the answer is that I have to change my living circumstances. It's really dragging me down.

But that'll have an impact on my kids, so I'm hesitant to do what I have to do (it's divorce).