hi,rdoc
your blaming him for how you feel.
therapist have as much as 8 people a day some time more they brake down too.
but i think you wanting to save without working the mental health help,i am so scare sometime when i go to therapy because i only seen this one twice, she real good because i had bad,but she,s not going to save me i am out here in the world trenches ducking and hideing from me(smile you got to laugh at ourselfs) and some body trying to say it ok to feel that way. we think they in love with us becasue we so lonely, and depending.be careful about personal relation with therapist. male or female, they are also human beings.
think about things one day at a time.
peace and blessing
rdoc