Thanks for all the loving support, guys. I am just too hurt by all of the rejection from the neurotypicals to address each post separately. I just have the general feeling that you people here *DO* understand, and *DO* care. And most importantly, that i *DO NOT* have to open my wallet to get your interest, time, effort, and compassion. It's a critical lesson for me to learn.

I MUST STOP CASTING MY PEARLS BEFORE SWINE!

I cannot continue to share my joy with people who just seek to crush it, and crush me. The neurotypicals are a bad investment. I wouldn't make such a decision with my money.

Why am i making bad investments socially, emotionally, and spiritually? I am empty, and depleted, after just six weeks of trying to get things done with the neurotypicals. It is just not possible. They DO NOT WANT my help, and i am tired of offering it, just to be rejected time and again.

Unaluna, thanks for seeing the humor in my dinner party debacle. Indeed, "What comes first, the friends, or the dinner party?" I think i've learned the hard way, that it's the friends.

I've had good interactions with everyone i invited tho. They've all helped me out time and again, and i wanted to thank them, the only way i can, by entertaining them, and spoiling them, and feeding them delicious home-cooked creations.

But they don't want that. A few were gracious in giving me their "regretfully decline," and thanked me for the invite, and said it was nice of me to think of them. So perhaps i did pay them back for their help in the past, merely by OFFERING to have them over for a luncheon... ???

I don't care for the people who were terse in their refusal, but the few who were gracious -- i feel they were sincerely flattered to even be invited to my home for a luncheon, and genuinely sorry that they couldn't make it.

So the whole debacle was worthwhile in that way. Sure, maybe i did NOT in fact get to entertain, and spoil them, but they were offered the opportunity, and it's on them that they couldn't take me up on it.

I mean, it was on a statutory holiday, a luncheon (so they could still carry on other activities thru the day, if desired), and i made it clear that they could dine-and-dash if they had a busy day planned, or linger as long as they liked, if so desired.

My point is this, i guess: i made the gesture of inviting them. I guess i will have to be satisfied that that is all the thanks they need for helping me out in the past.

I'm sorry that my grand plans came to naught, but i can only lead a horse to water. I can't make her drink!

And there may be luncheons in the future, once i've established closer relationships with people, and time it better so as not to conflict with statutory holiday plans. Or even dinner parties! All is not lost. I have learned, as a hostess, and reality-testing is always a good thing!