You are so strong managing your panic and anxiety. It's funny, my psychiatrist says everywhere in my city are being slowly off benzos and your Dr is wanting you to be on them. I'm on medicaid. I'm sure you are too but new York, Oregon, California, and the upper north east states have their own form of medicaid. Like there's only one place here that does medicaid management. When you get a therapist, they've usually just graduated and once you start to finally trust them they leave and go into the public spector. So I've used music as my therapy. That's why with this new therapist I just want to do cbt. Not get into my trauma. I watched it ends with us on Netflix and bawled my eyes out. I completely understood that and I wish I had a man that had my back. My dad died when I was 4 and men in my life have hurt me. But anyway I had a good cry, lol.

Sorry about the long paragraphs, I'm on my phone and you can't go up to correct things. But hopefully I'll be getting a new laptop soon.