without having to take a ridiculous amount of anti-manic stuff with it?

My pdoc asked if we should think about adding something for depression right now and I couldn't answer. Lexapro made me manic (wasn't on a mood stabilizer, but was taking 1.1g of Seroquel, you'd think that would quell me), Prozac made me manic (was on an AP and lithium), Effexor helped for a few weeks, then until I got off it was rapid cycling hell. Amoxapine fked up my heart (I don't even remember being on it, but I found a cardiology report I don't remember ever getting saying it's fking up my heart).


Honestly don't even know if not being depressed is a good idea. I feel like slow thoughts and low energy kinda keep me safe.