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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
My meds still allow me to bawl my eyes out, remarkably enough.
I feel like I'm losing my damn mind. I don't feel right. Nothing feels right. I'm forgetting things. I'm confused. I'm foggy. I'm forgetting conversations I've had with people. I'm making stupid mistakes regarding the ezine. My psychiatrist is out of the office on vacation for the next two weeks. I'm lacking motivation. I'm sleepy. I don't know what's wrong with me! I think I'm on too much seroquel, so I'm cutting my dose in half. I think I'm going to call the nurses line on Monday anyway. Maybe a different psychiatrist in the office can help me.
I had an appointment with my therapist this morning and she thinks maybe the seroquel increase combined with the wellbutrin increase is having a negative effect. Something about dopamine.
Monday night I invited my parents out to dinner. Not looking forward to it. They're going to see me and tell me I'm not a 23 year old girl anymore. They have zero respect for me as an individual. And they certainly don't respect my husband. And I love my mom, but don't particularly like her. She's mean!
I'm hoping that tomorrow when I wake up I'm feeling somewhat normal, though the abnormal feeling just gets worse each day.
Honestly, WHAT THE FUKK IS WRONG WITH ME!!
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You may not want to hear this but it may be the benzo you are on. Over time, clonazepam lowered my I.Q. drastically. I was foggy, losing common words in conversation all the time, had increased panic attacks (and more severe ones), and I was very forgetful. It was something that built up over time After tapering off the benzos, these problems disappeared altogether or greatly reduced. I had been afraid I was getting early onset Alzheimer's or something.
I'm on a high dose of Seroquel too 350 mg/day. However, cutting your Seroquel is a dangerous propositon, you know, just inviting mania and paranoia to slip right in.
Really, you may need to start tapering your benzo, scary as that is. Or the wellbutrin isn't agreeing with you. Wellbutrin may have made me a bit forgetful as well, if I recall (though it's hard to say, I've been on so many meds). Raspberry, I don't think you should cut your Seroquel without discussing it with your pdoc first. Just wanting the best for you  Last time I cut my Seroquel so I'd have more energy I ended up super manic and only just stayed out of the psych hospital.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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