@Blueberrybook:

So sorry to hear of all your troubles with things breaking down in your home, and car. And on your H's birthday! ROOTS in the pipes -- ye gads, how are you not going bonkers?!

It'll all get sorted out in time, tho. Just be patient and breathe, breathe, breathe.

Thanks for chiming in about my building's social events, in the midst of all of your pain. Yeah, we do have a swell "vertical neighborhood" here. The Social Committee disbanded over COVID, and it took this one powerhouse dynamo graphic designer new owner to re-ignite it.

And re-ignite it he has -- it's an inferno now! He's almost over-the-top! He definitely errs on the side of doing "too-much," rather than "too-little." His events are dazzling, breath-taking.

Unfortunately, they are also poorly-attended, with only ten or fifteen people. Don't know how long he can keep himself going in light of such poor attendance. But it's his passion, and vision, so i must let him be, and trust that he can manage himself well enough not to get frustrated, and bitter.

I was on the Social Committee myself. The old director pre-COVID was fine with me just pitching in when i can. But this new director wants a commitment, days in advance, and i just can't do that with my sleep being so wonky.

Also, he is not too nice to me because we clash as personalities. So i've decided to attend his events strictly as a guest. I did cheat his last two events, and pitched in by taping down all the electrical cords he had snaking along the sides of the party room as they were a tripping-hazard.

This Valentine's event, i knew he was wanting to maintain privacy for the room, and unveil it only upon opening, and he had put a string curtain in front of the glass door, which didn't really work that well, so i taped up some pretty green tissue paper for him, without telling anyone.

Whatever, i know he noticed, and he knows it's me. It doesn't matter if he doesn't say thanks. He lacks grace-under-pressure, and doesn't delegate, isn't a good manager, and suffers for it as he has a severely compromised immune system due to being a kidney transplant patient.

But he must get something out of all his work, and it's a volunteer position, and if he wants to kill himself putting on social events, it's up to him. I am certainly grateful that he makes the effort. He's a virtuoso of party-giving, and if he is cranky before showtime, i must just steer clear of him, and not participate officially, just do small things under my own initiative.

He's still nasty to me, and i can't really indulge that, as he is an adult, and shouldn't take on leadership roles, if he is not willing to delegate, and maintain grace-under-pressure, which is critical just before showtime, when he is liable to lose it, and be unpleasant.

Sorry so long, it's been on my mind for a while now. Just had to vent, i guess. Thanks to all who made it thru!

@Iloveanimals25:

Hi! I'm Jane! Welcome to the bipolar board! I've been meaning to write to you, just haven't had a chance.

I am so moved, and inspired by your compassion, care, and effort with your schizophrenic son! You really try and work WITH him. It can't be easy, and it's good for me to see a responsible parent.

My parents just threw my schizophrenic brother out. Took away his food, clothing, and shelter at 16, as soon as it was legal to abandon your children. On his 16 birthday even. "Happy Birthday. Get out." Gee, mom and dad, your compassion knows no bounds...

My parents were monsters.

We like all the same music. I loooooooooooove Tori Amos! Have you seen her videos of her live performances on YouTube? She's a witch, an apparition! She plays two pianos, abutting each other with just space for her in between the keyboards!

She tosses her beautiful red hair about, really snapping it up like an animal. She just whips herself up into a frenzy! It's so fun! What's your favorite Tori Amos song? I like "Raspberry Swirl." It's got such ENERGY!!!

I like Staind's "Outside" too. Such an evocative song. What do you like better, the studio version or the live version?

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I slept eight (8) glorious hours last night, with just one brief potty break. Feel much healthier today. Sleeping earlier, which i like, and having early mornings, which is good for getting lots of things done. Must run now. Know i love you all, and sorry i couldn't get to all of you. Be well, and keep the faith!