Hi Angie, I promise you that your soul is not going to die. You've got too much soul for bp, depression or anyother "illness" to take you out. I know it feels that way sometimes, as though the evils of our illnesses have stolen everything that is good, that gives us hope, that gives us the will to keep on keeping on.....but the "good" that is in you WILL prevail. I've no doubt of that. You know all that wonderful support and advice you have for so many others here....well it's high time you gave some of that lovin' to yourself. If you need to crawl under the covers for awhile...then do it. If you can get lost vicariously in a movie...then do it. If you can pray...then do it. If you can do something creative...then do it. If you can play some uplifting or upbeat music...then do it. If you can invite a friend over to play cards with or twister or trivial pursuit....then do it. If you can take a walk in the mountains, or by the ocean or a river or in the forest...then do it.

The point is....take some action. Change your current environment, ambiance or company your keeping...anything to alter the space that's brought you to this point or is perpetuating this downward spiral. Breath some fresh energy into you current circumstance. I know none of this is a cure....but anything to keep from going downward. I have faith in you Angie. You don't have to take this lieing down. Choose to stand up and fight it with all that you've got. The illness does not have to win. But it IS up to you!

Hugs Angie. TgrsPurr