Well, that's it. I've had it with my ignorant sister. I did a whole photoshoot today for her of the dogs and i on my luscious new furniture from my guest-dog's dad. I had my one close neighbor in to take the pictures. Twelve hours later, on this "Family Day" holiday, she still has only sent a thumbs-up reaction emoji to my text.

She just won't make time for me. Fine. There are other people in the world who will. There's no sense beating my head against a brick wall. She has her own life, her own family, and career. She has shown time and again, that she will not make time for me. I deserve better.

She's my only living blood relative, so i've been reluctant to cut the cord, but if she can't even spare a few kind words for me via text on this "Family Day" holiday, she is NOT my family. She's someone i knew briefly, a long time ago, and our relationship was mediocre anyways, as she was a junkie at that time.

Most of my memories of her, are her drunk or drugged. She tried to drag me down with her. She

I'll NEVER forgive her for getting high on all the drama around my

It was so irresponsible, and "Drama Queen" of her. She was drunk when she told me. Then she tried to hug me, as if we were sharing a moment together, her drunk out of her ffuucckkiinngg mind, and eager to share news that should have come from my parents. I pushed her away roughly.

I did not want to be touched by that junkie wwhhoorree, and i did not want to participate in the circus atmosphere that accompanied my brother's death, the whole living room crammed with relatives, and neighbors all getting off on the drama of it all. It sounded very much like a party, everyone boozing it up, and the noise level deafening, from all the excited voices of the big ffuucckkiinngg phonies.

Well, at least now i am free to leave my estate to my main support group. It's volunteer-run, and i know they could use the money. They do such good work. Just today, on a holiday, i was on our regular ZOOM call, a coffee social this morning.

It's so excellent that they run ZOOM events even on holidays. They had them for Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year's Eve, New Year's Day, an online Christmas Party where i won a prize, (and felt much better), a Valentine's Party, and now here they continued regular programming on our Family Day holiday.

Neurodivergence does NOT take a day off. The other IRL support group just ffuucckkiinngg shuts it's doors on holidays, and during the week between Christmas and New Year's. It is unconscionable. What do they think? Just because it's a holiday, we don't need support? We need MORE support on holidays, not LESS. Irresponsible ffuucckkeerrss!

Anyways, it was always kind of phony to leave my estate to my nephew. He didn't even invite me to his wedding. He's never tried to contact me. I tried many times when he was young to be a part of his life, i showered him with gifts via mail.

I even moved back to my hometown once, because i knew i wasn't going to have any kids of my own, and this was the one opportunity to participate in the life of a child. That was such a failure, my sister just rejected my attempts to get the three of us together to do things.

My sister thinks she is in "recovery," and has "done a lot of work on herself." From what i can tell, she is still the same selfish, self-involved aasssshhoollee she always was.

She's just got a diploma, a career, and a family now. She's just a bbiiaattcchh!!! She's as weak, and un-self-aware as she always was. She's oblivious to her faults, and thinks she has improved herself, and evolved. She'll always be a junkie wwhhoorree to me!

So: good riddance to bad rubbish!

The image is of the ripped-up pieces of my will. Time for a new will, one that makes sense, is aligned with my values, and goes to an organization that has TRULY helped me, not just five distracted phone calls with my sister over the past 25 years (two of them to tell me family members had passed). I'll leave my money to an organization that helps me out for two hours an event, five days a week, and is there for me on holidays when life is particularly tough.

Cchhrriisstt, family sucks!