@Blue_Bird So sorry about the dissociation. I was hoping the Thorazine had helped you. I know it really sucks, it happens to me all the time, out of the blue. It's gotten to the point where it's so common to me I often ignore it. If I think about it too much, then I get anxious and panicky and thinking I belong in a psych hospital, my brain's so crazy. But I don't know, I've been dissociating since I was a kid, I am more used to it. Can you do something to get your mind off it? Watch a show on TV, play a video game, maybe paint? I don't know about you but I have found with art whenever I do it, my brain ticks 100% into the picture I'm working on, nothing else penetrates for me. Do you have something you can do where that is the case for you?

@JaneOnceMore I'm sorry about your difficulties with your sister. That sounds tough. I am very lucky in that regard; my 2 sisters are my best (and only) friends. I just wish I could see them more often and life weren't so busy. My only other good friend I made in college and she moved to Connecticut but she also has dual citizenship in Switzerland and has been spending more and more of her time there. Not that I blame her. If I had dual Swiss citizenship and could speak German and French as she can, I'd probably just pack my bags and move there, the way the state of things are going in the U.S.!

As for me, I'm having a good morning. I slept well, and when I woke my cat Pecan was lying next to me purring. It's always so hard to get up when you've got a purring cat lying next to you! I took a long power walk, practiced planks, and now I can actually do a couple of real pushups after all the plank practice! I showered, made H's lunch for work. Read with the SAD lamp, had fantastic concentration this morning, didn't even get earworms penetrating, which I often do after listening to music on my walk. I drew and colored, 3 pics total. My cardinal came out pretty well. I experimented with drawing a still life, but I'm not so sure how that turned out (everything in the creative corner).

I'm a bit more energetic than yesterday, so maybe I will bake that banana bread today, and I've got plenty of library books to read. Shaping up to be a pretty awesome day