I’m 14, and I genuinely have no redeeming qualities. I comfort my friends constantly and make sure they’re okay, checking in on them just to make sure—but sometimes they ignore me or just don’t even bother to do the same. I’m a pretty empathetic person, but I’m overly sensitive and get hurt way too easily and that’s annoying to others. And I’m super paranoid about people leaving me to the point where I’m constantly seeking validation that they WONT leave, and that’s probably disgusting to them. Not to mention that I can get aggressive on accident and that’s not good either. I talk too much, I fish for compliments sometimes when I’m feeling insecure, I try so hard to be a saint but I’m a disgusting, horrible person who deserves nothing. I cause everyone in my life nothing but stress and pain and I honestly shouldn’t have the right to be around anyone. Which is why it hurts to have good ppl around. I’m hideous and chubby, and I feel dirty no matter what I do. I have a horrible, mangled face with a large nose and horrendous features, so no one will ever desire me when I’m older. I’ve always worked hard to be an artist and animator when I grow up, but ALL of my friends are better than me at art, which was pretty much the only thing I had left and now that’s gone too. I’m nice but not nice enough to call a nice person, I’m not smart, I’m not funny—people joke abt me being annoying, I’m not interesting, I’m not pretty, I’m a disappointment and a waste of space, taking the place of someone who actually deserved a life, unlike me. I’ve looked around and seen the amount of ppl unhappy with where they ended up, wishing their dreams could be a reality, and I’ve NEVER had good luck. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to achieve anything that I’ve dreamed of. The innocent little kid who used to want to be an artist will be disappointed soon, just like the world when it realized I was born.