Hey! I'm back. Although, now that I'm here, my mind is blank. *cries
I'm just so done with life, and tired. I really wanted to go see this movie tomorrow since like summer of last year, but it has all become quite a hassle. Tomorrow is like the only day I can do it, before it leaves the theatre.

Whatever. I'm just like so struggling... trauma dump below, so don't read if you're feeling bad too. Probably no one will read, because who wants to hear constant complaining? I guess that is what makes it all worse, because i am so like addicted now to "venting". Just so sick of being sick! Sigh


with physical pain and also the stress of being so dependant on others and dependent on pleasureable things just to maintain sanity and make the pain hurt less. But some of those pleasureable things are actually sometimes harmful to me (dietary stuff), and other things are such a pain for others. So like, i have to feel guilty when i ask for help or company with things... Not only that, i have to, sometime suffer, through a lot of their things too, or just have them do it without me.

I am saying a lot of things that are general complaints, and yes they can be, but I'm also not explaining it all that great either. I'm still not the best writer, or i need to edit like a million times to actually say what i mean, or even know what i mean.

I'm just having a bad day. Also was a couple hours late for my evening pain meds, and i HAD to eat some not so good food for me, because the diet food just blehhh. So I'll possibly be hurting again tomorrow, when i was physically slightly better today, despite the backache and the mood.