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Originally Posted by NovaBlaze
These things happen. We’re human. We make mistakes. The question is, can you evaluate, learn from them, and move on. All we can do is hope that there are no life-threatening repercussions, and that no one is going to be severely impacted as a result of what we did or didn’t do.
I read a chapter in a book once, by a chap who I know could be very divisive with his views, and he surprised me with his compassion on the subject of making mistakes. The chapter was called “How big a mistake are you going to make?”, and it touched on people who were just going about doing their daily job when the results of their actions caused a significant loss of life. He talked about how these people became vilified, but in reality they were just you, or me, or the next person in line, who happened to have a bad day, but in a job where there could be catastrophic implications. It made me stop and think about how lucky I am never to have been in that position. It also reminded me that we need to be more understanding and compassionate when people do make mistakes, and also a bit less harsh on ourselves when we make them, especially when everyone walks away relatively unscathed.
I believe it is all too easy to get into a cycle of negativity around making mistakes. They will happen. If you start to fixate on them, then you will lose focus and make even more.
I don’t know if this response helps. You do seem to be very harsh on yourself. You don’t have to answer these questions, but, out of interest, do you set yourself incredibly high expectations? Also, do you find you set equally high expectations of other people too?
Your vacation is definitely a good thing to focus on. It’s so important to have something to look first to.
Jeff.
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Thanks so much, Jeff. Here's the thing. Yes, I can be very hard on myself and have high expectations of myself. I have high expectations of other people too. My boss came down hard on me the other day for one of my mistakes, which she has done frequently enough to make me walk on egg shells around her.
I have made 3 mistakes with data in the last week or so. It's been obvious. BUT I have been sick too. I will need to let it go.
But my boss has me walking on eggshells, which is the main point. I am afraid of doing anything wrong in fear of receiving more of her wrath. I know she is already telling my teammates that I am a "square peg in a round hole" and that I belong on another team. Those words came out of my colleague's mouth straight to my face, and I know that those words came from my boss, not my colleague.
Vacation is soon, yes, but I am still sick and taking medications. I pray I get better in the next week or two.