Yes, it was nice, thoughtful, kind, and unexpected.

I have a session later today. So, why am I waiting for the other shoe to drop? Accepting the kindness...the receiving is unfamiliar terrain. The child within is afraid to let her guard down. The adult self is a tad cynical & suspicious of motives. There are no parts of me that expect to be cared for. There is a constant state of alert; maybe this is a manifestation of the complex ptsd T spoke of.

My affirmations today: I will be. I will allow myself to be cared for. I savor the caring by those with whom I share my self. I will accept the motive of caring.

Sigh