Thanks, that makes me feel better about my sleep rehearsal! I thought I was somehow just torturing myself in my sleep. It would have helped me a lot back in Feb and Mar when I was having nightmares and hypersensitivity if I knew my reactions to stuff was somewhat common, maybe even expected. Instead I assumed that I was just being a freak and generating more anxiety subconsciously to increase my mental misery and somehow got lucky and it ended up helping me.... Hey, just realized... I'm paranoid of myself... LOL!

I think I have the perseverance, motivation, and discipline to push myself through this discomfort and not allow it to hold me back from something that will affect my career. My kid and my career are to things that I am willing endure a lot for. Or at least that is what I am telling myself (my rational self talk )

Sky_ just a side note:
You've written a few things this past week that have been so simple, but just reading them, has been so helpful to me. These comments not only were effective in immediately lower my stress level but also help me later realize other stuff too. I think if I was actually doing a good job of expressing what I am experiencing to my T, she would tell me similar things without having to suffer in silence for 4 months. My behavior is really inhibiting my progress and increasing my suffering. In need to continue working on this.

Thank you