Long story short

I am a rare case of a person who didn't benefit from medications (2018-2019). I am no no-vax in fact i am more a science person but I have reasons not to play easy with medications
I had my first psychosis while on meds at 31
Never had such thing before

Now i have become clean without medications
I can stick to a routine better than back then
But I am still depressed cause my life was ruined around 2018/19

Now my psychotherapist (i never quit the relationship with her started in 2018) wants me to go back to meds despite my history
I am the most sober patient, yet she knows my financial and personal life was ruined after 2018 and my guess is she wants to call herself out after tooking a lot of money from me

It is complicated to explain, i wish I never entered therapy cause i had far more control handling life myself. My biggest fatality