So enjoying this forum and all my online friends! @Blueberrybook: you are a wonder and a delight! So adroitly supportive, better than any therapist i've ever encountered.

@LadyShadow: the goal is to MODULATE high mood, not SQUASH it entirely. A lot of good things happen because of high mood. Certainly, euphoria is an experience to be treasured, not banished. Your doctors need to understand this. Educate them, if necessary. I find i'm in the position of educating my own doctor more often than i'd like. Like he didn't know that the hypothesis of blue-light deprivation has been debunked, and recommended it to me.

That's just laziness on his part. He should be informed, if he's gonna take on an advisory role. Jerk. I corrected him right away. Sometimes, he just gives up and says, "Educate me." Not what you want to hear from your health care professional.

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I finally got some decent time with one of my two friends today, the young man who is doing his Ph.D. He helped me with a online shopping return, then i treated us to lunch. He was so funny, he said that this really floridly gay man in the building has a sex swing on his balcony! Hahaha!!! My friend also confided in me his homosexuality for the first time, and i am so honored he felt comfortable enough with me to do that.

I feel he may actually be bisexual, or was at one point, because he used to pursue women too. Anyways i am so pleased that he thought i was worthwhile enough and safe enough to reveal his true self, and feel we have taken a giant step forward in our relationship. I feel he is maybe even a candidate for a travel buddy to Cuba! This is wonderful! I'd love to take a beach vacation with him!

Exhausted tho. We really rococheted (sp?) around the city in his car, and he's very quick, tho doesn't have the keen memory i have, even tho i am 58. I had an eidetic memory when i was younger, but even tho it is fading, i still have a better memory than people decades younger than me.

I had such a good time with him, laughed and laughed about the sex swing on the balcony of the floridly homosexual man in the building, laughed about it for the rest of our adventure. Really funny, i find humor so therapeutic.