@Blue_Bird - Did anything in particular trigger your anxiety/panic attack? It doesn't always help me, but if you have chamomile tea that can be calming, maybe put on the Celtic music you posted the other day? Lavendar essential oil can help too or a nice soak in a hot bath (I usually bring in a magazine I don't care if it gets wet as old magazines are free at my Friends of Library book sale).

@JaneOnceMore Thanks for the compliment! Sometimes I can respond to other posts and sometimes not, just like most of us here though I don't know about being any sort of therapist. Sometimes I get a bit snarky, sometimes I get frustrated, short with others, etc. And when I'm depressed & manic I often skim posts. I never had a true eidetic memory, but when I was in school, it came close, like I could word for word put down the sentence from a textbook from memory for a test question, and in biochemistry, I could picture those cycles--photosynethesis, Krebs cycle, organic chemistry molecules right in my head. I do miss having that good of a memory. I don't know if meds have dulled it or mental illness, most probably a combination of both.

@LadyShadow - It's good to hear from you. I'm so sorry you have had to go through a really rotten manic cycle but am glad to hear your mood today is not bad. Your selfie is gorgeous