“I know the method of taking care of yourself works on many levels, just have to find that initial push to get going. But currently I do feel very low again.

I have no friends, no real family(sisters and a brother, I don't really talk to any other family). I do have one older friend back home that I call sometimes. Some may suspect that my wife is gone but I won't confirm it. I feel ashamed.”

I can relate to a lot of this.

The low periods come and go. I’ve noticed that over time they got less intense, shorter, and further apart. I also noticed I had times of genuine happiness in between.

I can relate to the shame comment too. I dodged family and avoided old friends for a year.

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