Sorry to all of those struggling with sleep.

@LadyShadow way to make your bed!

I ended up not making it to the meeting at my church-I went for a walk instead. But, to answer your question @Blueberrybook the group at my church is a branch of St. Vincent de Paul which helps people who are struggling financially and with food insecurities.

I've been saying for weeks that I'll go to a volunteer meeting and still haven't gone. I realized today that, in general, I've been withdrawing into myself because I'm giving up on having connections with others. It's really hard for me to relate to other people sometimes, and I'm not a huge priority to the friends I have (it's always me reaching out to them). My life has been a constant cycle of people entering my life and then leaving it so I guess I've been withdrawing to protect myself because it feels like I'm once again losing the few friends I have since I never here from them.

I can't let this stop me though. I'm only 32 years old. If I live to be old, that's a lot of years of being by myself if I don't find ways to interact with others...loneliness sucks (I know many of you on here sadly experience this too...).