I'm almost considering asking for some PRN Zyprexa, but I don't want them to yell at me for not taking it every day if I say I was struggling (but didn't want to eat 5000kcal of food and pass out for 14 hours and wake up wanting to remove my skin and limbs which honestly, zyprexa's the most effective thing I've tried for psychosis/mania/mixed states, but it gets a bronze for worst side effects).