I slept for a total of seven glorious hours, broken to be sure, but at least i logged the hours in. I fell asleep at 9:30pm then started waking up and getting up, til 7:00am.

I am astonished that i slept so late! That's the latest i've slept since Christmas, two months ago! Still in good spirits, and i don't think this is hypomania going on after all. I think this is just my natural good health from a reprieve from my Prolonged Grief Disorder (PGD).

I don't feel pressured in speech or writing, i am organized, and on top of my finances. I am more interested in men, but it is more of an amusement, than true hypersexuality. I'm a little loose with the personal information sharing, but i also urgently want people to know me, so i feel it's still healthy, just something new to get used to.

Getting along well with my friends, and having great experiences with cab drivers -- it's a party everytime i take a cab. I make the drivers roar with laughter, i am so colorful. Whatever, this current vignetter is, i am grateful to be feeling strong, and powerful again.

Still feeling lonesome, as i wrote about avove, but it seems to be an insurmountable obstacle currently, so i'd better just accept this is my circumstance in life at this time, this awkward age of 58, and being healthy now that my grief over the passing of my younger sister has abated, and being on private disability benefits, while my peers lead busy live as accomplished professionals, mothers, grandmas, etc. Once my peers retire, and are available for fun times, things will improve. This is just a temporary drought of friendship, and i can survive it.

I contacted a woman from my distant past, when i was thinking of having a travel companion. She turned me down, but said she'd call me later when she had some time. She said it was nice to hear my voice. I didn't expect her to call, but she's a very honorable, and reliable woman, AND SHE DID CALL. We spent about twenty minutes catching up. I was glad to hear all her news, her life has gone very well. So that's the first friend i reconnected with yesterday. We're going to get together for tea when i get back from Cuba.

I reconnected a second time yesterday, this time with my best friend from the Summer of 2022. I apologized for the cranky email that ended our friendship, and she astounded me by apologizing for her own bad behavior which played a role in the failure of our relationship. It was a really good reconnection experience.

Unfortunately, in the two years since it's taken us to reconnect, she's gotten frenetically busy with her grandkids, and legal aid committees. So resumption of our friendship is not possible, due to her being too busy for me now.

I am happy for the time we spent together yesterday, which she insisted on doing face-to-face, and for her advice on my upcoming trip to Cuba. She said it's so safe for a solo woman there, that she travelled in Cuba with a nine-month-old baby! So, i'm very reassured by this news, that I am taking a reasonable risk by travelling to Cuba alone.

Now, just to wait for my passport to process. It's due Tuesday, March 4, in six days, and then i can start making commitments for travel on the 22nd. I'm so worried the airbnb i want will get booked in the interim.

I've contacted the airbnb operators and let them know i'm interested, so at least they have a heads-up that i want the place. People in Cuba are so very poor tho, if they have another party apply to book their airbnb, they'll have to give it away to someone who is willing to pay immediately.

Keep your fingers crossed for me!!!