Sounds like you need a hug, so ...
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((Grey))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I don't know what to say, except that I can understand what you're saying.

Being 'different' is hard, especially when you see other people being 'normal' and having things so 'easy'.

Come march with the drummers in this site. You're not out of beat here.

Take care.