This might seem backwards because of all the internal conflict and pain I feel, but L let me touch her belly/the baby. We both cried. She was so beautiful. Remember, she’s been hiding her bump from me so it’s not triggering to me. She said the baby moved when I was talking to her and she said the baby doesn’t move that much. Seriously, such a precious moment for me. I’m so grateful to have that opportunity seeing how I will probably never meet her. I got to touch her (the baby). The pain and conflict are still there AND I am so glad L gave me this gift.